There’s a lot of struggle that goes along with the act of forgetting yourself. Struggling because you’re never listening to your intuition, never seeing the signs, and constantly feeling like you’re failing. Forgetting yourself is truly a space of inner conflict. Finding yourself is like a place of unknown and worry. It can be hard to learn what your intuition is telling you and what progress you should be making. It can be hard to balance your forward movement so perfectly that progress doesn’t self-destruct. Both of these options, finding or forgetting yourself, can make someone feel like there is no winning.
Throughout my youth, I spent so many years repressing my spiritual connection and gifts. I was always forgetting myself, not allowing intuition to seep in and guide me. I would chalk intuitive and psychic experiences up to coincidences and follow strict atheist beliefs, even while living with generational witches and psychics. Sometimes experiencing trauma or having a mental illness can get in the way of healing and finding your spiritual side (even if you’re currently getting signs to lean into your spirituality) and this is exactly what I was dealing with. I was holding onto trauma and others’ opinions rather than releasing hurt that was done to me and following my own instincts. I needed to clear some pretty important emotional blocks before I could fully accept my gifts.
Years into my journey of healing and self-acceptance I finally decided to take my spiritual practice seriously after a push from an incredibly supportive and intuitive friend. I had been told those words many times before, the words telling me I was spiritually in tune with the universe, but something about being free of most of my traumas and ready to really hear it made it sink in for me.
I feel grateful for all of the support I’ve gotten in my waking life and the spirit world. I’m finally confident in myself and where I’m going with my life. I feel confident in finding the things I need and not just the things I want. I now have healthy and consistent ways of protecting my spiritual energy and finding peace. I was able to make my journey less chaotic through the act of self-love and acceptance. The act of finding myself.
