Sometimes waking up from a long night is gentle and quiet on the outside but on the inside, your mind is buzzing with dreams from the night before. This is exactly what this transition from the meditative space of winter into the liminal space of spring has been like for me.
At the beginning of autumn, I lost my best friend to mental illness, and from this, I was catapulted into accepting the need for a spiritual transition. By the time I welcomed winter I understood the deep meditative work that I needed to do to allow myself to heal. I’m still heartbroken, but I’m not traumatized by the way things played out this past autumn.
I ache and wish that I could hold my best friend again, hear them form new thoughts, and watch them discover love and life, but I can’t. This loss has taught me many things about accepting imperfection, hurt, going slow, going fast, finding motivation within chaos, not letting myself drown in the confusion, and many more things. I came out of winter hibernation a new woman. A loss like this isn’t something you can solve in an instant, it’s not something that goes away with a good season of reflection, it’s a lifetime of acceptance.
I woke up from winter with so many new feelings and revelations. On the outside, I have been moving slowly and methodically, but on the inside, I have been a whirlwind of emotion and change. Over winter I dug deep into finding what healing looks like for me and those around me. I can now say with confidence that I understand it on such a wild and fierce level.
The magic of the world, and the phases of life and the universe are something I intimately understand. These are the lessons I called upon in my darkest hours to help me make sense of the movement around me. I acknowledge that there’s always something more to learn but within this specific space and time I’ve tapped into something sacred, and for that I am grateful.
Like all powerful things, timing is important. As the spring equinox approached I was putting the finishing touches on my workshop for tapping into the triple deity within. This is a project I hold near and dear to my heart and was designed to help others examine their inner power. To find strength and hope where they may not have noticed it before, and to use that to carry them through the difficulties of life.
I’m grateful that I dug deep inside and examined how I was restoring myself. I’m grateful for the opportunity to build community and healing within this space. Life is like a river, a constant flow of emotions, movement, revelations, happiness, grief, love, hurt, dreams, disappointment, and whatever else a soul can experience. Your inner power is a life raft within that river. Knowing yourself is what gets you through and helps guide you safely down that river.
I’m eager to announce my workshop because it’s something I dreamed up, it’s something that I found healing in, and I have watched others find healing within it as well. I’m grateful that I woke up from the meditative space of winter with a truly transformational idea that came to life in the truly liminal space of spring.
If you’re in the Detroit area you may sign up for the workshop here. For the rest of you, thanks for your support and sharing this journey with me.
